I was just going to add this bit in my older entry and make it an "edit" but...I don't know, just thought it should be in a new entry and all. I realize the part about me going back to school and stuff you already read, but I'm gonna add it in again anyways in case some of you didn't see (for those that care anyway).
OMG, you guys! Okay, okay, it's just...usually I don't like sharing my dreams to anyone (it's not like they're embarrassing, it's just...most of the time I can't remember them quite clearly, lol). Anyways, last night...I had a dream about the Slenderman for the first time! It's really weird, because...I don't know, wasn't expecting a dream like that.
The thing is I...don't quite remember everything clearly like I mentioned earlier, but I remember the gist of it enough to share with all of you.
Well, in the dream, Slenderman...was a vampire; he was the "Slenderman vampire" or something like that. Now, before you guys go rolling your eyes and thinking: "Oh, I know where this is going." Just hear me out first! It wasn't a "sexy" dream or anything like that. Slenderman was still, in fact, a pretty damn, scary creeper like he usually is. Just this time he was doing it as a vampire.
So, the dream. Well, from what I can remember, I was in it (oddly enough for me) and trying to protect this group of children from the vampire Slenderman getting to them. I don't know how, but we ended up in this ruined building of sorts, and basically around every corner, there's Slenderman, attempting to break down doors and walls just to get to the children.
After a while, we ran out of spots to hide, and at one point, I was face to face with the Slenderman himself. Before the inevitable came, he starts telling me telepathically (don't ask ) and states that he was never after the children to begin with; he was after...me! I was utterly terrified, of course, and this is the point where my dream starts getting a little vague. The scenes kept playing out where each and every night, no matter where I went, no matter where I hid, Slenderman would find me, and in various places (being my neck and wrists from what I remember), he plunged his fangs into my skin hard, and in my dream, it hurt like fucking hell. It was just agonizing pain!-- and he would do this every night until my body was drained all of its blood.
At some point the SWAT tried to protect me so that I may live, but no matter what, this was the Slenderman, and thus, their fate just ended up them being slaughtered or mutilated by him.
...and...I think I pretty much told you all what I can remember about the dream. It was definitely the Slenderman, by the way. Tall, lanky, thin, long limbs... He didn't wear a cape or anything like vampires would. He just...looked how he usually does in the games and whatnot.
...now...I'm sad, because I would so love to draw something like that (being Slenderman biting into someone like that), but alas, I'm not that good at drawing creepy.
If only I had the money to pay an artist on here to draw the image out for me. Hey, I know he's not a vampire, but it still could be a pretty damn scary thing to see. Even more scary, because it was me who was the victim.
Anyways...hoped you enjoyed hearing (or rather "reading") me out here. Would be curious as to what you guys think of it.
Nothing's, as they say, "set in stone" yet, but I am making a huge change in my life-- a change that will affect my life and me personally, and...I'm totally all for it. I don't really like talking about my personal life, but since it's just about me and nobody else, I guess I'll make this one exception because I really want you guys to know about it.
I've...actually been pretty depressed with my life for a long while (not like suicidal or anything ). Before I turned 26, I just woke up one day and thought: "what the hell am I doing with my life?" and so here I am now, trying to set things right with myself. So what am I doing? Well...I guess you can say I'm going back to school-- BUT it's more like a job training program (sort of) where it focuses on what I'm applying for, and not taking silly classes that have NOTHING to do with my career in life. Anyway, it's only a stepping stone, but it's a stepping stone where if I get this said-job, I could make enough money to eventually get a place of my own. Oh my God, you guys, you have no idea how much I want my own place. MY OWN PLACE. No parents. No roommates. Just ME. I seriously want this to work out, because I could land a pretty great job (and good pay) if it all works out.
As far as I know, you have to make an appointment to get "interviewed"-- basically they talk to you to find out if you're right for the school/program (they don't just accept anybody apparently), have to take testing to see if you're smart enough, and the last important thing: are you financially covered. Luckily, I passed everything! I was so nervous about being accepted.
The financial I was worried about more, but apparently, I'm pretty much covered. I mean, of course I have to owe money back (loans) to the school, but that's fine. With what I'm taking classes for, I should have no problem eventually making payments.
I'm going back to the school next week to pretty much finalize everything, and if it does, I should be starting classes towards mid June. I'll be making another journal about it once everything's set.
Since this is really important to me, it's probably going to affect me being online-- more importantly, my artworks/stories even more. Anything that has to do with this school comes first.
Anyways, I'll go on more about it once I'm all set in going. Basically I just passed on being accepted and whatnot. That took forever.
If any of you decided to answer that poll that I put up about what I should draw next...I just want to say thank you for that. ~
I mean, I know some of you stated that I should just draw whatever I want, but...well...what I put in the post is what I want to draw next, it's just I can't decide what it should be first. With the poll, you guys just helped it along on what I should start on first. So now...I'm drawing Joker. I'm gonna try to draw in order from what the poll says, but I can't promise Joker will be up first. I did mention that I'm working on a few birthday gift arts for a few whose birthdays are in June. One is a family member...and the other is a deviant on here I've been talking with. Just thought I should start doing something like that.
Hey, I did say I'm making changes to myself and on this website, and this is a start. I want to try and draw people birthday gifts now (but just remember: I'm not doing this for everyone. Just friends I've been talking to recently on here, and/or have been "watching" me on here for a long time).
BUST commissions ~ $3USD = 240 points
- $2USD = 160 points per extra character
FULL-BODY commissions ~ $6USD = 480 points
- $4USD = 320 points per extra character
*check commissions journal for more information*
prize ~ one character waist-up drawing (fully colored/no background)